It’s been a hard week. The stress has been getting to me and all I want to do is read horror novels and listen to everything I liked back in high school. Violent Femmes, Throwing Muses, Pearl Jam, Primus . . . jangly emotional punk and grunge were key to my vibe back then. (Along with more dark and mellow bands like Dead Can Dance.) Listening now takes me back to those halcyon days when life was actually worse than it is now, but I also had way fewer responsibilities. I could just hole up in my room and be sad back then, and now I have to soldier on and keep people’s spirits up and actually be responsible for things. *sigh*
Instead of holing up in my bedroom like an angsty teenager this week, I finished and blocked the scarves I’ve been working on.
That is the Silky Scallops pattern by Joan Marie and the Context pattern by Kristin Briney. Both in leftover Midnigh Dreary sock yarn by Crow and Crescent yarn. I wore the only light grey sweater I own today so I could model them for you. You’re welcome. They were a good way to practice my lace knitting skills and they’ll be nice in the fall when the weather turns chill again.
Aside from the knitting, my week was pretty routine and low energy. I’ve been pulling a divination card or two every day, as I usually do, and even the cards are low energy. I think every card this week was about worries, burdens, feeling scattered and blocked. Today’s card was the Five of Pentacles–hardship and insecurity. Yeah, they’re really reflecting my own sour energy back to me lately. Since I’m a grown-ass middle-aged adult and not an angsty teen, I’m committed to working on getting out of this funk in the coming week or two. But I’ll probably still be in the mood for musical nostalgia for a while. Maybe this week I’ll push forward into college-age nostalgia. Tool, Deftones, System of a Down . . . that was my Nu Metal phase, clearly.
There was one unexpected bright moment to my week. Last week I said I had to do a small repair before I could finish painting, remember? Well, as an early Mother’s Day gift my youngest kid decided to patch that hole. Amazingly, thanks to some DIY my husband did ages ago, we had everything we needed to patch that hole and I just didn’t know it. I’ll still have to buy a little more paint but I can totally finish that project now. It was very cool of her to fix that for me and saved me a lot of work. She did a great job.
And that’s my week. I’ll try to be more chipper next time. Until then, I wish you a week of your own favorite tunes from high school.
Cauldron Comforts 